Merry Christmas

Dear Whoever You Are,

I just wanted to wish you a peaceful and happy Christmas.  I hope you’re surrounded by love and family.  If you’re not, then this is my wish for you, as contained in one of my favorite Christmas songs…

Faith, Renewed

Dear Whoever You Are,
Yesterday a guy that I've known for many years got engaged.  

Our paths often crossed... at college, in the workplace, on social media... and I was consistently befuddled as to why some lucky girl hadn't snatched him up.  He's a great guy: funny, positive and an amazing friend to everyone.  He has a big heart, too.  He puts on an annual dinner/ fundraiser from which the proceeds go to a variety of worthy causes (one of which has been something close to my heart).

Not so long ago, he began a relationship with a woman who I understand he had been friends with for some time.  That friendship evolved over time into something far more and very beautiful.  He held out for his perfect match, and what's more, he proved that what these messages to you have been about is a very real thing and is, indeed, possible.

Their engagement gave me a renewal of faith that you're out there and we'll meet when we should (according to some people, that day is right around the corner *cough* Rachel *cough*).

In any case, congratulations are due to Mike and Tracey on their engagement... as well as my thanks.

I Am Being Stalked By a Song

Dear Whoever You Are,

For some unfathomable reason, this song popped into my head a couple weeks ago.  While fairly popular it wasn’t a huge hit; nor did it It have any special resonance in my life.  The very next day I was on my way home from work and heard it on the radio.  

Hmmm… interesting coincidence.

So the other day I was on my way home from work yet again and there’s that song yet again.  I figured the radio programming gods, in their infinite wisdom, had dredged it out of the circa 2001 archives and put it back into rotation.  

The next song annoyed me (“Blurred Lines”... ugh) so I changed the station.  I crossed the bridge into Illinois and made my way through Rock Island to pick up my boys for our usual Wednesday dinner.  They get in my car and guess what... there’s that song again, this time on the other station.  Weird.  I swear, I am being stalked by this song.

Put aside for a moment the likelihood that I’ve just experienced a statistical anomaly of some sort and/ or the fact that “Wherever You Will Go” has merely been put back into pop radio rotation for a period of time.  Imagine that is this an instance of God or the universe trying to send me some sort of message.  If so, what would the message be?  The song, while very romantic and all, is in large part about a lost love.  I don’t see that as being a huge issue for me (no offense ex-girlfriends, but we’re all good).  So what would the message be then? Maybe you and I have already met at some point.  Maybe I’ve seen you somewhere and missed the chance to talk to you (were you the young lady I saw at Goodwill some months back?).  Maybe you’ve seen me and missed the chance to talk to me.  Maybe…

In the end, does any of that really matter?  

What ultimately matters right now is that I live my life as fully as I can and do the best I can by my boys.  I know you’re doing the best you can and doing right by you and yours.  I know that you’ll be a huge positive in my life and a great companion on my journey (which is exactly the subject of my next sermon).

And I trust that wherever you will go, it will eventually lead you to me.

Let's Show Them How It's Done

Dear Whoever You Are,

I hope I get to meet you soon.

Not just for my selfish reasons:

I wonder who you are.

I wonder what you’re like.

I wonder about your smile.

I wonder what it will be like to hold you.

I wonder what song will never fail to make me think of you.

All that good stuff.

What’s on my mind tonight, what weighs heavily on me right now is that people are growing cynical. That just doesn't sit well with with me.

You and I, we’ll be able to show our friends that one doesn't have to be cynical and give up on love.  We’re going to show them that two people can do right by each other, no matter what.  We’re going to prove that hearts aren't made to be broken… they’re made to love and hope and dream. We’re going to tell a tale that will never be forgotten.

We’re going to show them how it’s done. And I can't wait.

Lessons

Dear Whoever You Are,

As I have alluded to before, I am not perfect nor do I pretend to be.  I have made at least my share of mistakes along the way.  What I always try to do, however, is learn from them.  I know, easier said than done. While I don’t always succeed, I certainly always try.

When I started writing this letter, I thought it might be interesting to hear from some others on what they’ve learned along the way.  I asked a few friends what their thoughts were, and it's been fascinating to see how similar all our experiences have been.

Above all, honesty. Sorry, Billy Joel, honesty is not a lonely word.  It is, in fact, necessary to any relationship. I don’t just mean honesty along the lines of not cheating on the person you’re with (I’ve never cheated, by the way, nor will I ever).  I’m also talking about honesty in terms of who you are, where you’re at in life and your feelings about the other person.  Truly opening the book of your life and your heart to someone else can be scary, but it is necessary.  I don’t mean blurt out your life story and open up the floodgates of your heart over coffee… more often than not this takes the form of discovery along the way.  However it happens, it’s one of the most important building blocks of any relationship, so it's critical to get it right.

Trust Your Instincts.  There was a woman I was involved with a couple years ago who, on the surface, was fantastic.  She was beautiful, kind, funny and as a very nice bonus, really liked me too.  We began a relationship, even as I ignored the proverbial voice whispering in my ear telling me no.  I all but moved in with her from the outset.  Things were great at first, but I found that the more time I spent with her, the more depressed and down on life I got. I took someone pointing that out to me for me to realize what was happening.  I walked away shortly thereafter, but I continued to feel the effects of that relationship months later.  I didn’t listen to my instincts and paid a price for it.  Rest assured, that won’t happen again.

Amazing begats amazing.  There is no doubt in my mind that you will be amazing. I've set a pretty high bar in certain ways as to who I want to be with. I imagine you have too.   I will accept nothing less than amazing, and neither should you.

True commitment.  This always a challenge.  Everyone’s heart moves at a different velocity and people frequently have different views on what commitment truly means. Ultimately (to me anyway) this boils down to effort.  You want someone who is willing to put in the effort required and fight for the relationship, even when (especially when) things get rough. That person is a keeper.  Otherwise, it’s best to move on.  A one-sided relationship can’t last.  Period.

It goes both ways.  When a relationship ends, one always wants to diagnose what went wrong and assign responsibility.  I’ve generally taken on the burden of blame for such failures, but in the end, two people were involved… therefore (unless someone did something egregiously wrong, like cheat) it’s not the fault of only one person.  

Not for its own sake. I’ve known this for a long time.  I see too many people who enter a relationship for it’s own sake… just because they’re lonely or even to have someone around to help pay the bills. I’m convinced that a vast majority of the dysfunctional relationships out there stem from being with someone just for the sake of being with someone.  

You have to ask yourself: will this person be a positive in my life?  Can I trust them?  Will we grow together, both as individuals and as a couple?

Faith and courage are required.  I’ve brought both of these up in previous letters, but both bear repeating.  It takes courage to hand someone your heart and basically give them the power to smash it all over the floor.  We all feel the same kind of fear, but if you never take that risk you’ll never get to something amazing.  It takes a great deal of faith in someone to give them that power, just as it takes faith to hold out for someone amazing.

Love not just one thing.  Some relationships are based on one thing and one thing alone… sometimes it’s just physical, but just as often, people have a specific emotional need to fulfill. A truly fulfilling (and potentially long-lasting) relationship is a holistic thing… it’s about two people merging all aspects of their lives. Maybe not all aspects right away. but at least have something more to go on than great sex or not wanting to be alone.

Love has a will of its own. I know I’m not the first one to say it, but no one can force love… in fact, the more you force it, the more likely it is to get away.  It will find you eventually, probably on the day you least expect it, likely in a way you never dreamed.  The key is to keep your eyes and your heart open… otherwise you may miss out on a great opportunity.

I will do my best to be mindful of these lessons when you and I meet.  I’m looking forward to learning about the lessons you’ve learned along the way… maybe between the two of us we’ll get this whole romance thing figured out.

Handle With Care

Dear Whoever You Are,
Here's a little something I wrote a few years ago.  I hope you get it, and I hope it rings true for you...

HANDLE WITH CARE

By Jim Moens

“Hold this,” I said. “But be gentle.”

She took it from me, and held it as gently as I asked.

“It’s beautiful,” she said, smiling slightly.

“It’s yours.”

Her smile faded a bit, but didn't become a frown. She considered it for a moment.

“I might drop it or something,” she said, still not looking up at me.

I shrugged. “It’s yours. I want you to have it.”

She looked up at me and smiled again.

I looked at her expectantly.  She handed it back to me. I took it, but not eagerly.

Her hand brushed my cheek. “Hold on to it for me,” she said. “Just for now.  Okay?”

I nodded. “Okay. I will.”

Screen Door

Dear Whoever You Are,

I have the best Facebook chats on early Saturday mornings.

First, some background.  I had this girlfriend a while back.  We had some wonderful times together, but ultimately we got to where our relationship wasn't going to go any further.  It wasn't much fun for either party when things ended, but I learned a lot from our time together and even more from our separation (all lessons that I will take heed of when I meet you).  In any case, we have since managed to forge a pretty solid friendship.

So we were Facebook chatting this morning.  She has met a fellow that she has some interest in.  By all accounts, he’s a pretty nice guy (I would expect no less) and he seems to give her some measure of comfort and happiness.  It appears that more could be at hand for them.  For my part, I am all for it. She is my friend and I want happiness for her.  

She shared that, relative to the aforementioned gentleman, she’s been feeling a bit vulnerable of late. Like most of us, she’s not a huge fan of feeling that way.  I certainly don’t fault her for that.  It’s a scary proposition to hand someone your heart and presume that they will handle this fragile thing with all due care.  

I think, though, the prospect of what could be is well worth any risk.  

My friend is being smart about how she proceeds.  She’s looking at this person and this situation through a metaphorical screen door. She’s there and involved, but still being careful with her heart.  I get it.  I've been hurt too, and it’s human nature to want to avoid that.  Also, I've seen far too many people leap headlong into a situation they probably shouldn't be in, with a person that’s maybe not right for them and she’s certainly far too smart than to go that route.

Ultimately one has to open that door, however.  I hope she will get to that point where she feels safe and comfortable and will open that metaphorical screen door to let this person in.  It’s okay to feel a little vulnerable... that means you care.  Also, there’s much to be said for feeling vulnerable together (I bet the guy in question feels much the same way).  The potential upside is worth some risk.  In the end, though, you won’t know if you don’t try.

Taking that leap to let someone into your heart takes no small amount of courage.  Great things almost always require some degree of risk, whether it’s romance or standing up for yourself or pursuing that big dream that could change your life.  In the end, you don’t serve yourself well if you don’t show some courage and try… there are few things worse than the regret of not going for something amazing.

So whenever it is that I meet you, try to be a little patient with me.  I have a screen door of my own, just as we all do.  Eventually I will open the door, reach out, and take your hand.  Step in with me and we can be vulnerable together.  I hope you’ll let me in too.  I promise you it will be well worth the risk.